Wednesday, February 3, 2010

In my heart and in my head

Ok finally a post without a picture of a gourd. Honestly, I was getting sick of posting them and I know that all of you who read this (both of you are really nice for humoring me by the way) were probably sick of reading about them. I have just 4 more to deliver and then I promise the word gourd will not grace your screen on my account for quite a while.

So today I've been feeling very crafty. Not in the sense that I'm scheming, but in the sense that I want to make something....and I don't want to study. I know that's a horrible thing to say, but it's an honest thing to say. I am all quizzed and tested out this week and unfortunately, I still have two more quizzes to prepare for. It will happen. I will study, but I don't want to. That's the point I'm trying to make. So earlier I was cruising around the web looking for a project to get started on. I found this cake and these brownies and these cookies...and then I realized that I had procrastinated enough and it was time to get back to the grindstone....

Tonight I went to dinner with some friends and then went to the informational meeting for a medical mission trip I'm going on this summer. We're going to stay on the Amazon river and minister the people of Peru. I am very excited because I've never been on a mission trip before and I know that it will be a great opportunity to help people and see things I would not be able to see in the dental clinic at MCG, but I will admit that there is an element of fear for me. Will I be able to raise the money to go? Once I go will I be able to do any good with the little knowledge I have? Will I get sick on a boat on the Amazon river, so far away from the people I love and the capitalist healthcare system I hold so dear? When I read back on those questions, they seem kind of trivial but there is a very real part of me that is a little nervous about going. I'm just being transparent.

So here I am and here is my heart. My crafty, difficultly motivated, worried heart.

I wish I was here instead.

1 comment:

  1. So, wow girl, didn't know you were going on medical missions trip to Peru this summer!!! I am so happy for you! It's been a while since I have chatted with ya. I do think about you and hope that you are doing well, you and your husband both! And by the way, one of my closest girl friends lives in Peru and is a missionary there. Her name is Elise and if you want to know how to reach her cuz you might go really near her mission, then let me know! Talk to you soon! Oh and I have blog now too. It's called Lancaster Hangout! Love you, Kara :) (Former Kara Jackson)